Sitting in the Tension

When I read the post below, I am overwhelmed remembering how tenderly the Lord held me during those initial weeks of grief. How I could feel His presence and love so strongly, even in the midst of the worst heartache I’ve ever known. What an amazing God….

“It’s been one month today. One month since I’ve seen your face. One month since I’ve heard your voice. One month since I’ve held your hand. One month since I looked at you and told you I loved you for the last time on this earth. One month since all of our kids were in the room with you to say goodbye. One month that has in some ways felt like a lifetime. One month of such heartache that at times I’ve wondered if I can breath. But, it has also been one month of tremendous blessing and if right now I didn’t acknowledge the blessing I would totally despair. One month of the blessing of watching our children support each other and me in the most beautiful ways. One month of the blessing of a huge, close extended family that is full to overflowing with love and support. One month of the blessing of precious friends who are holding us up and going before the Father on our behalf. One month of blessings financially from both those who love us and those I don’t even know. One month of blessings of Holy Spirit filled moments of grace beyond belief. I know there will be many more months of sadness and many more months of blessings. They will be intertwined, both hardness and beauty. Both grief and joy. And right there in the middle of it all are the memories we hold dear and the God who gave them to us and we will continue to cling to Him and look forward to the day when we will see your face again.”