1/18/24
Sometimes it still takes my breath away that you’re gone. I’ve learned to do life without you by my side, even learned to fully enjoy it and be excited about my future, yet there are moments where my breath catches in my throat at the thought you’re not here. Time is a crazy thing. It can feel like many years since the kids and I started on this path and then it can feel like only moments. Most of the time my memories find me with a smile on my face, filled with joy at both the life I once had and the life I now lead, but every so often the enormity of what’s been lost punches me right in the gut and I lose my breath. In those moments I allow myself to feel sad for as long as I need and then I remind myself that God has plans for me and they are many and they are good. I still have an amazing, beautiful life to live. And I know you’d absolutely want me living it.
Sitting in the tension of sorrow and beauty that abounds.
Sitting in the Tension 
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